Where did I go wrong?

As if I was going to see you in the darkest street
I could be everything you needed, so why aren't you here?
Life is a hard thing when you refuse to look at me
I'm here, still waiting, for it to set you free.

I'm learning how this works
I'm finally getting on
but it won't stop being sad, that I miss the nights we talked
for hours and some more
Now I'm here waiting, and I cannot say a word

This is what breaks my heart
I can't do anything about it, just think that you might be thinking about me the same way
You used to smile politely
The most childish grin
I miss your voice inside me
your skin against my skin
Well, it sometimes happens
and sometimes I can feel that you feel the same way I do

but it's so hard to find out the truth
It's so hard not to lose faith in you
I wonder if I'll ever know what's behind
all those beautiful, useless lies
Are you lying to yourself, or are you just pretending?
I miss the way we were, even though we were nothing
You're still an angel and I'm held in your hands

I wish I could set you free
I wish you would stop hurting me all the time
I wish you would stop pretending, forgetting all those feelings, I once thought you had
I guess it is not your fault, but I need you all the time

And if you have to leave
Please, don't forget to say goodbye because I cannot live not knowing if you'll come back
or if once you were mine.